blinded by starlight, heartbeats and my mind.

Yesterday when I talked with you on the phone, you told me that you had the feeling that everything gets better instead of worser. But why do I feel this way? Why can’t I just accept that this is the way that things change and I’m not the one who can hold you in my arms forever?

You’re just the guy I like to see later in my life, living together and that sort of things. I know it sounds exaggerated but it’s just the thing i’ve been thinking about. 

Can you love someone too much? I’m scared it will destroy me. 

Boyfriend talking and complaining.

I just don’t know what’s wrong with me this last week. I’m feeling so insecure and jealous and different. 

I love my boyfriend, I really do. He is the sweetest and most pure guy i have ever met. I’ve been feeling great about our relationship since the day we met and I don’t know what to do without him. He gives me all the attention that I need and tells me that he loves me and cares about me almost every day. 

But this weeks are killing me. He’s is studying to be a docter and he has to work in the hospital for 4 days in the week. When I had my internship there was no problem, but since I have my two weeks of vacation it’s so different. I take every word he says personal and with every bad thing he says I think it’s because I’m doing something wrong in our relationship. 

Maybe the insecure feelings come from his friends. Well, I can say girlfriends because 80% of his friends are girls. I trust him for 100%, but the fact that almost every friend that he has is super handsome and nice makes me a bit insecure and jealous.

I know I can trust him, but my trust has been trapped in the ground since some things in the past happened.  I just hope this doesn’t effect my new relationship, because I know he’s the right guy for me and I just don’t want to lose him. 

I have seen so many cool artists in 2011, and had such a great time! I can’t imagine that I have seen Arctic Monkeys, Bombay Bicycle Club and Coldplay in one year.. All of my favourite artists! 

I’m in the last week of my internship and it never felt so weird to leave a place like today. They’re all so sweet and loving people and I can’t imagine leaving this place. Well, they gave me a contract for working backstage, so that’s really cool and I’m not leaving entirely. 

I will always remember P60. :)

so, i’m planning to dye my hair red, but I have a bit of a question.. Does anybody knows if you can dye your hair red, when you have brown hair? I really don’t want to fuck up my hair :\