February 2012
31 posts
Calling me bitch on the phone while i was not supposed to hear that. Well, thank you. I wasn’t feeling bad enough.
Re: I have nothing more to say →
Hey there.
What does it mean to miss someone? Is it the longing and the wishing for things to be like they were before? Or is it the simple lack of a familiar presence in your life? Someone once told me you never fully give a shit about missing someone until you pick up the phone and tell them. I haven’t done any such thing and neither do I plan to, so perhaps I don’t miss you all that much....
Weird
I think it’s weird to see how fast feelings change. Those last two weeks were absolutely perfect. Didn’t feel insecure, didn’t feel sad or that sort of things. But how one argument can just ruin the whole thing makes me scared.
It’s just like two weeks ago, when I could cry all day just because of nothing. Because you weren’t reacting as happy as you did a hour ago,...
it’s all okay. after having a shitty valentine, you just decide to ignore me the whole day. sometimes I think the most horrible things. But no, it’s okay. I’ll just pretend to be happy and loving if you text me tonight. or something.
new names for lowlands festival, the black keys and james vincent mcmorrow
can’t wait.
great valentine.
while my boyfriend is downstairs doing everything but things with me, i’m just sitting in his room watching tv.
I’ve lost confidence in my words and in everything I was absolutely sure of.
I don’t know where to go from here.
What mattered to me before seems so insignificant now. I’ve lost the touch of remembering what it’s like to feel, to feel enough to hurt, enough to cry, enough to care.
But I can’t allow myself to feel too much without fear of being hurt. And there is so much I need to say now, but I don’t know where to start. There is nothing sentimental in these words. Just the musings of a jaded heart.
Stupid fucking valentines day. I just hate it.
“I feel right with you. Like even if stuff sucks right now, I feel like I’m...”
Well, this is a great day.
Just went shopping with my boyfriend and his mom, and ended in the hospital because his mom got a heartattack. Now i’m all alone is his house when everyone is in the hospital, and I see a picture of you holding a girl really close, and no.. it’s not me. you fucking wanker.
Why can’t I be the girl that gets the boy and the happy ending?
Relationshit.
I just wish I could be a normal girl without insecurities. So I wouldn’t hurt you and wouldn’t fuck up our relationship.
It has been a hell of a week and a hell of a monday.
Crying makes me always feel better. Even if it’s not the way it should go. So now just come and hug me tonight.
“She says she has no time, for you now”
– Keane
I know it’s getting a bit better and i’m just having a breakdown moment because i’m free and you have to work all day in the hospital. And I know you probably wont come over tonight because it is snowing like hell and it’s not nice to drive the car in the snow. And I know you like me and love me and maybe you even miss me. I know you will never kiss another girl as long as...
January 2012
10 posts
spending lowlands and 2 weeks in france together with my boyfriend.. best vacation ever
Yesterday when I talked with you on the phone, you told me that you had the feeling that everything gets better instead of worser. But why do I feel this way? Why can’t I just accept that this is the way that things change and I’m not the one who can hold you in my arms forever?
You’re just the guy I like to see later in my life, living together and that sort of things. I know...
Boyfriend talking and complaining.
I just don’t know what’s wrong with me this last week. I’m feeling so insecure and jealous and different.
I love my boyfriend, I really do. He is the sweetest and most pure guy i have ever met. I’ve been feeling great about our relationship since the day we met and I don’t know what to do without him. He gives me all the attention that I need and tells me that he...
“she’s pushing me away, afraid to be the bitch she’ll never be”
– brother
I have seen so many cool artists in 2011, and had such a great time! I can’t imagine that I have seen Arctic Monkeys, Bombay Bicycle Club and Coldplay in one year.. All of my favourite artists!
I’m in the last week of my internship and it never felt so weird to leave a place like today. They’re all so sweet and loving people and I can’t imagine leaving this place. Well,...
December 2011
7 posts
so, i’m planning to dye my hair red, but I have a bit of a question.. Does anybody knows if you can dye your hair red, when you have brown hair? I really don’t want to fuck up my hair :\
“he never said I am the one
I gotta do the best I can
he changes his mind...”
– Absynthe Minded
“As i’m crying, so frightened of dying
Relax, yes, i’m trying
This...”
November 2011
13 posts
can I just think one second about the things I do? I just fuck up my whole internship by just forgetting everything, i forgot to sign a paper, i forgot that my internship leader from school is coming to my internship place tomorrow and she’s going to discuss some points that I wrote up and I forgot to discuss those points with my accompanist. I’m dead by tomorrow. Someone just kill me...
