blinded by starlight, heartbeats and my mind.

Sometimes I just don't know it anymore.

Mon, 13 May 2013 11:07:00 +0200

And my head is just one big mess.

Dear uncle, This weekend was a terrible weekend. It hitted me right in the face when my mom told me...

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 22:04:00 +0100

Dear uncle,

This weekend was a terrible weekend. It hitted me right in the face when my mom told me you are having this horrible disease. It hurts me so bad to say it. “He has cancer Anne.” I couldn’t believe it when my mom said this, how could this be true? Tears were streaming over my cheek. Why you?

It’s been two days since i’ve heard the news, but it hurts me so bad. You were the one who was always there. Not only when someone in the family was feeling bad, but also at every birthday, every party, always.

I can’t imagine that you, who was always there, will just dissapear. Sure, some people will leave you, but they will always stay in the background. But you will dissapear, after a long time we won’t remember your voice anymore, and after a long long time we won’t remember your face anymore. It makes me so incredibly sad that you maybe won’t be there anymore.

In my nightmares I dream about your funeral. How it will be, what kind of music I will hear, the sorrow of everyone who will be there and how you are going to be missed.

There is still a bit of hope, but not much. This week is going to be full of tests and scans and all that sort of things. Monday is the day that we will hear how long you will live and how bad it is.

I never told you I love you. But dear uncle, I do. I really do. You mean the world to me and i couldn’t have a better uncle than you.

54 is too young to die. So please, stay with us. I don’t want to miss you.

Love, your niece.

"I’m always surprised how unbalanced I become when your hand lets go."

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 19:55:28 +0100

“I’m always surprised
how unbalanced I become
when your hand lets go.”

Missing you

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 19:53:12 +0100

Dear boyfriend,

It gives me such a sad feeling that i can’t hear your voice for the time that you are away. I hate it that I can’t cuddle you and lay in your big, strong arms that make me feel so safe. I hate it that I can’t look into your sweet eyes that make me melt every time I see them.

Please let this week go by fast and let it be monday the 18th. I hate to be alone.

i love rome and i love him

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 19:44:00 +0100

i love rome and i love him

some things make me a bit sad, like not going on vacation with my boyfriend this year, because...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 19:41:54 +0100

some things make me a bit sad, like not going on vacation with my boyfriend this year, because he’s too busy working, having a lot to do for school which makes me crazy and the fact that i’m almost done with school and i have to leave some amazing people behind.

Audio

Thu, 27 Dec 2012 17:18:40 +0100

Photo

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 23:21:12 +0100

Suburban War- Arcade Fire Let’s go for a driveAnd see the town...

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 11:08:58 +0100

Suburban War- Arcade Fire

Let’s go for a drive
And see the town tonight
There’s nothing to do but I don’t mind
When I’m with you

can we just disappear and move to another country together?

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 09:28:44 +0100

can we just disappear and move to another country together?

I don’t know what this is, this weird feeling as if something has to be wrong, that everything...

Thu, 08 Nov 2012 16:31:36 +0100

I don’t know what this is, this weird feeling as if something has to be wrong, that everything is going so well that something bad is about to happen.. it makes me a bit scared and insecure.

Right now I just want to cuddle my boyfriend and feel happy again.

<3

Wed, 07 Nov 2012 23:36:07 +0100

Photo

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 14:24:40 +0200

Mom, i love you. I know it’s hard sometimes, but just remember that i love you.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 00:08:24 +0200

Mom, i love you. I know it’s hard sometimes, but just remember that i love you.

Kings of Leon || Pyro All the black inside me Is slowly seeping...

Sun, 14 Oct 2012 10:49:43 +0200

Kings of Leon || Pyro

All the black inside me
Is slowly seeping from the bone
Everything I cherish
Is slowly dying, or it’s gone

so it’s that time of the relationship again, sigh

Sat, 13 Oct 2012 12:13:57 +0200

so it’s that time of the relationship again, sigh

For weeks they had strolled around,Playing the fools.They knew the time would come,And time would be...

Sat, 13 Oct 2012 11:27:00 +0200

For weeks they had strolled around,
Playing the fools.
They knew the time would come,
And time would be cruel.
Because it’s cruel to everyone,
He’s crying out from the meeting place,
He’s stranded himself there.

Where her voice still echoes,
“I’m sorry I met you darling,
I’m sorry I met you”

As she turned into the night,
All he had was the words,
“I’m sorry I met you darling,
I’m sorry I left you”
“I’m sorry I met you darling,
I’m sorry I left you”

i just don’t know what this feeling is, i feel like crying

Wed, 10 Oct 2012 23:25:29 +0200

i just don’t know what this feeling is, i feel like crying

Photo

Mon, 08 Oct 2012 22:20:48 +0200

Photo

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 08:04:16 +0200